
Taken from a birthday dinner @ Maggiano’s in Oakbrook, IL with Jas, Gar, Lori, Rho and Jacs (names shortened to protect the innocent lol). We ordered drinks (made mine a Tanqueray on the rocks) and dinner for 6 people: calamari, bruschetta, veal marsala, veal parmesan, the rigatoni “D” with chicken, and a gnocchi special with sausage that was actually made with ricotta cheese instead of potatoes (kinda blows my mind hee hee). It was enough food for everyone with just a LITTLE bit of leftovers for breakfast the next morning! YAM YAM NOM NOM EAT ‘EM UP. Disclaimer: Maggiano’s is part of the Lettuce Entertain You restaurant group, but it never really disappoints. In alignment with a side note here, consistency is everything!
Today I turn twenty… (man, do I really have to do the math EVERY TIME? lol) SEVEN. And even though the last minute countdown to midnight was rather uneventful (I completely stuffed myself with GEWD Mexican food around 9pm and slipped into a food coma once I stepped into the house LOL OLD MAN), I feel as though I should say a few words before I get back to my regularly scheduled REM cycle:
I’m one day further from twenty and one day closer to thirty. If my friends Jorge, Diego, Brian, Jeff and Don (I totally outed ALL OF YOU lol) are any indication of what life will be like then - to put it simply, it’s seems like fun. I’ve always felt like I grew up too fast - been too independent of my family too quickly… quickly trying to assimilate the good traits of people I chose to model myself after. It sounds cliche (lol which *sounds cliche* in it of itself), but it has brought me to where I am today.
So uh, where the heck is that btw?
Spiritually, I’m in a good spot. Being in Chicago for these past couple of days has greatly reinforced my value on old friends. Picking up at the point just before I left for San Francisco (now Seattle) as if nothing ever happened puts all of my anxieties of “Will it be different” or “Will I need to justify myself and my choices” at rest. It was like I never left (that’s a good thing). Sure, there are changes - people are getting married, having kids… but I can deal with that. I see it as my “family” getting bigger. What only-child wouldn’t want THAT? Hee hee.
In Seattle, (and brace yourself for some cheesiness peoples) I co-exist, breathe , cook, argue, cuddle, care and live with (and for) one of the most precious people that I have ever met in the entirety of my life. Everything, and I mean everything in this very existence has been to improve myself, to learn HOW to be a better human being in so my aspects so that I can be worthy of catching a brief moment of attention from someone like her… and stretching it until forever.
Everyday that I spend with her, our lives intertwine like bunched up Christmas lights or jump ropes after recess. Yup. Jump ropes and Christmas lights. It makes me happy. <3
One final note:
I know pressure comes from all directions. The weight may be too much to bear and it may hold you down as if you’re trying to crawl for the first time.
Keep trying to improve yourself homeslice…
…and keep your head up.
It might take 27 years, but you’ll finally find peace.
Happy birthday to me.
xoxo,
~Herschell